Time out!

Confession time!

I am in a self-proclaimed time out. Really.

Call it hormones. PMS. whatever you may. But when it comes,
my anxiety goes through the roof and i turn into this whole other person
that even *I* don't like. My hubby has jokingly labeled me
the "possessed Susie Doll" when i get like this. My eyes light up,
my head spins around...you get the picture.

I had dd home all day, so my "day off" was ambushed by a sick child.
After 3 days of a sick child last week, i didn't take that very well.
The lowest point of my day was when i had my own tantrum (blush)while my ds was having HIS tantrum over shoes. Thankfully he was only 5 minutes late.
I must admit that i was completely honest and wrote down "trantrum over shoes"
as the reason he was tardy. I'm sure the ladies in the office have heard it all.

So i cleaned like mad today, made a crockpot, and politely excused myself to
my room after dinner. I'm working on curriculum for school, waiting for a phone call from my MIL (that's a whole other post!), reading, watching tv, etc.
I'm sure the hubby is thankful to not have to deal with
me, and i get the space that i so desperately need. At times like these,
I would be much better off if i could just hibernate or get a one way ticket to
Alaska (or Hawaii) for about 4 days.

So, hopefully i will be past the worst of it by the time the weekend rolls around
and I head to the mountains for a weekend with my wonderful girl friends.
My daughter hopes for your sakes that I'm through all of this, lol. You've been warned!

Nothing.

long week.
work which requires lots of patience and creativity. putting aside self to give.
other people's children. Your precious children. help me to welcome them as you would.

Home. sick child. wonders of when he will get better, and what course
will it take? my little boy is not quite himself. yet he is slowly improving. once again I must entrust him to you. You're not done with me yet Lord.

You are near. I may not always feel it.
But as sure the sun rises and sets, whether i see it or not, i know you are near.
Not all moments are lived in the clouds above troubles and worries.
You ask me to walk through the valley. Darkness settles over and makes itself known. But Your light overcomes the darkness.

and with that light, comes the radiance and the sheltering presence of your love. Nothing can separate me from your love.
Nothing.

The following scriptural devotional really spoke to me this morning. In uncertain times, it is good to remember that God is my source, and that I can trust Him. :)

Let us lift up our hearts and hands to God in heaven.

Who is like the Lord our God, who is seated on high, who looks far down on the heavens and the earth?—To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul.—I stretch out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. . . . Hide not your face from me, lest I be like those who go down to the pit. Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands.—Gladden the soul of your servant, for to you, O Lord, do I lift up my soul. For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving, abounding in steadfast love to all who call upon you.

“Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do.”

Lam. 3:41; Ps. 113:5, 6; Ps. 25:1; Ps. 143:6-8; Ps. 63:3, 4; Ps. 86:4, 5; John 14:13