last day of 2009

so my daughters comment this morning was...

i wonder what i should do today on the last day of 2009, because there'll never be another one again.

sounds like a good question for all of us to think about.

and wouldn't this be a great attitude to have every day...to want to make the most out of today?!


whatever YOU do, enjoy your day :-)

in the belly

have you ever felt God nudging you
to make a change in your life,
perhaps give something up for a season?

this is what i have been wrestling with for awhile,
and found myself resisting...
giving up something that had been very good
and encouraging for the past 6 years.

only was it encouraging?
not really. not right now.

i found myself coming away from what i had once loved,
feeling drained and overwhelmed.
unable to see the forest,
as i wandered amidst the trees aimlessly.

i've been like Jonah.
knowing the good i ought to do,
and unwilling to do it.

like Jonah, i've been sloshing around
in the belly of a fish.
how long ago did it start to stink?

part of his revelation from God during his time there:
"Those who cling to worthless idols
forfeit the grace that could be theirs."

that's what i've been clinging to.
a worthless idol.

so, here i am.
one week into surrendering this idol.
this sacred thing in my life
that is no longer sacred to God.

and what am i finding in the process?
God's grace.
his loving kindness and goodness.

i now have more free time with my family.
more peace of mind.
a slower pace and a quieted heart.

i am more engaged in the world around me.
i am more alert to my heavenly Father.

and i am more aware of my emotions.
no longer can i get lost,
numbing my heart.

so while this new season is very good,
it is very humbling and revealing.

being pruned is not pleasant.

my hope is that thru this process
i will bear fruit that
ultimately
brings glory to God.

Our Christmas Cat

This poem and picture are in tribute to our childhood family cat Taffy who lived 19.5 years(May 25, 1990 - Dec. 14, 2009). My Mom wrote this poem about her after Christmas 2008. Taffy must have loved the items under the tree as much as i did growing up.


Our Christmas Cat


By Betty Lehman

What does she dream, our Christmas cat,
As she curls beneath the tree
To rest in peaceful sleep, content,
Beside the Christmas scene?

What does she dream, our Christmas cat,
As breaths come slow, with
Body still, she lies
At dreamland’s door?

What does she dream, our Christmas cat;
Of ribbons and paper,
Of Christmas past,
The chase, the hunt, the laughter?

What does she dream, our Christmas cat?
Only she knows,
As she rises and yawns
And stretches and turns.

What does she dream, our Christmas cat,
As she curls beneath the tree,
To sleep again and dream
The dreams that only cats can see?

© 2009

burst of energy

i've known that i had a vitamin D deficiency since the summer, but i guess my dr. hadn't really seen the results. haha. and i didn't realize just how much it was impacting me with my low energy.

so while i was there for a sinus infection this week, she noticed my test results and is putting me on a weekly high dose of D (50,000) for 4 months, and suggests taking 1,000 D daily.

Soooo, lets just say that between the D and the caffeine i had yesterday, i didn't go to bed until close to 2:30. and here i am bright-eyed and bushy tailed this morning. I probably shouldn't have any caffeine next saturday when i take my next mega-dose, haha.

On the upside, my kitchen is clean, my laundry is slowly disappearing, i have all of my Christmas shopping for the fam. finished except for one gift (woohoo), i've played a game of Candy land with the kiddos already this morning, and i'm blogging today (surprise!)

I feel so hopeful that this is a step in the right direction for me, for my physical and emotional well-being.